The Core of Everything
I always think that every situations can always get better when I try to see once again the core of the whole thing. I always say to myself that "It gets better when you see things that actually matter.". It helps me get through every upsetting situations. Be it related to study, work, relationship or anything else.
I think life is like a super tangled piece of string. No matter how many twists it has to go through, it will always remain a single piece of string. A string has a purpose, to remain connected, from one point to the other.
Whenever I feel frustrated, heartbroken, and weak, and when I feel like I've reached my limit, I would try to unravel the whole situation. I try to untie the knots, one by one, until I find the core, the true purpose of the whole thing. Then, I'd feel better. Sadness, tiredness, desperation, regrets, are just a part of the process. Each one of them is just a twist in the middle of the string. What matters is the true purpose. Why I do what I do.
It's not a crime to cry, to feel frustrated, angry, heartbroken, and desperate. Those are the ghosts that need to be let out, otherwise they'll keep haunting me forever. I need to make sure though, that I get over it as quickly as I can. Trying not to get trapped in the dark for too long. Time will not wait. Either go ahead with the heavy bag on my back, or throw it down the hill and keep climbing with much lighter steps.
Punch, punch, and punch my way through everything.
But there's this uncharted territory that I'm not sure on how to deal with. I have my principles, but the emotional backlash is super strong and confusing. I know where I want to go, I know why I do what I do. I know that it's just one of those knots that I can get over with eventually. But what if... what if... what if..., there's just too many what ifs that I hate it. I hate having too many what ifs.
I can't punch my way out of this one. I have to drag the heavy bag with me. It's inevitable. I will not complain, though. It's the consequence of what I chose to do and what I chose not to do. I believe that everything good comes from good ways too. I just wish there's an easier way to get an answer other than to simply ask. It's the golden rule around here, if we don't ask, we may never get an answer.
For now, punch!
And, honestly, I don't really like writing about this. But I didn't have time to research better material to write and I wanted to fight this writing block. So, world, hear my babbles!
Whenever I feel frustrated, heartbroken, and weak, and when I feel like I've reached my limit, I would try to unravel the whole situation. I try to untie the knots, one by one, until I find the core, the true purpose of the whole thing. Then, I'd feel better. Sadness, tiredness, desperation, regrets, are just a part of the process. Each one of them is just a twist in the middle of the string. What matters is the true purpose. Why I do what I do.
It's not a crime to cry, to feel frustrated, angry, heartbroken, and desperate. Those are the ghosts that need to be let out, otherwise they'll keep haunting me forever. I need to make sure though, that I get over it as quickly as I can. Trying not to get trapped in the dark for too long. Time will not wait. Either go ahead with the heavy bag on my back, or throw it down the hill and keep climbing with much lighter steps.
Punch, punch, and punch my way through everything.
But there's this uncharted territory that I'm not sure on how to deal with. I have my principles, but the emotional backlash is super strong and confusing. I know where I want to go, I know why I do what I do. I know that it's just one of those knots that I can get over with eventually. But what if... what if... what if..., there's just too many what ifs that I hate it. I hate having too many what ifs.
I can't punch my way out of this one. I have to drag the heavy bag with me. It's inevitable. I will not complain, though. It's the consequence of what I chose to do and what I chose not to do. I believe that everything good comes from good ways too. I just wish there's an easier way to get an answer other than to simply ask. It's the golden rule around here, if we don't ask, we may never get an answer.
For now, punch!
And, honestly, I don't really like writing about this. But I didn't have time to research better material to write and I wanted to fight this writing block. So, world, hear my babbles!
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